Day 17: Sharing & Helping

An ongoing personal exploration of Divine Guidance and distinguishing between the voice of fear and the voice of love reflecting on the article, How to Distinguish Between Divine Guidance and Fear/Ego/Imagination, on Sir Froggie’s PositiveNews Network .

Today’s pairing is:

Divine Guidance prompts you to share and help others, and you do so gladly.
Ego again says, “all or nothing,” or tries to make you believe there isn’t enough to share.  When you find something or someone that needs help, ego tries to convince you that you can’t help.

For 16 days, I have had no writer’s block about any of the pairings…not until today. I’m not sure why I have so little to say about this. Maybe this pairing is really two different things smashed together…sharing and helping…and I can’t figure out how to respond because of it. Besides, I wrote about service just the other day, so this strikes me as a bit redundant.

Maybe the concepts “sharing” and “helping” are very much entangled for me with Catholic guilt trips and manipulation, and that’s why I feel uninspired. I don’t know. Then again, maybe it’s just a non-issue.

I guess I’m not one to go out of my way to help someone; when I do, I often regret it. I prefer to act in those spontaneous moments of finding myself in a position to be useful. I’m just in the right place at the right time with the right tools. It all unfolds effortlessly.

As the youngest of five children, all with big appetites, I was conditioned to protect what was mine. With my brother in the house, there was never enough milk, that’s for sure. That boy could drink a gallon at one meal! But of course, over time, I’ve come to realize that I can share and actually feel like I have more. But sometimes, I don’t want to share. So what? Big deal? In those moments I have a choice. Is it in my integrity in that moment to act from a more generous place and overcome my resistance, or it it to honor this little me that wants all her cookies?