Day 3: The Voice of Love in a World of Fear

I am in a personal exploration of Divine Guidance and distinguishing between the voice of fear and the voice of love. My inspiration came from the article, How to Distinguish Between Divine Guidance and Fear/Ego/Imagination, on Sir Froggie’s PositiveNews Network. In it, the author shares 36 descriptors to help us realize the differences between the voices of love and fear. I am taking one pairing each day, meditating and working with it, and then sharing my discoveries here.

Today’s pairing is:

Divine Guidance lets you know YOU ARE A POWERFUL SPIRITUAL BEING.
Ego tries to convince you you’re a helpless victim or that you’re not good enough.

I must admit I haven’t felt very powerful as of late with the major transition I’ve been in. This rite of passage into a new life, dismantling the old, has left me feeling very much at the mercy of something far, far bigger than myself. I have felt more a very small and insignificant wave in a very big sea. I can’t say that’s the voice of ego, quite honestly; or maybe it’s the voice of an ego humbled. I think accepting that actually becomes a source of power. The voice of the ego, though, is content to make this mean something it doesn’t…that I am Life’s victim or that every challenge I face is some kind of punishment reflecting some personal fault.

How well I’ve known the victim role and the sense of helplessness that comes with thoughts about there being nothing I can do, about not being deserving or good enough, about not being able to change a circumstance or overcome an obstacle. Sometimes, there is nothing I can do to “get my way” and my ego attempts to justify why. It gets angry with the thing called Life. The thing is, there is always something I can do…even if it’s simply to breathe and surrender and trust.

I know my power doesn’t lie in money or materials goods. My power doesn’t lie in control of situations or people.

So what is my power? My ability to intend? That I can choose love, forgiveness, and healing no matter what is going on around or within me? I am not convinced entirely. Sounds too simple, and maybe it’s impossible to really talk about. I don’t think I really understand power, and I’m not too proud to admit it. It’s bigger than I am.

There have been times in my life where I was in complete communion with this power…every part of me vibrating with love and intent. In those moments, I manifested. In those moments, I had no fear. In those moments, I had no doubt. Rather, I aligned and received. Intellectually, I can say, “Yes, that was me, not this small idea of me with attachments and aversions.” But who is the “me” that thinks it’s a powerful spiritual being?

I’m afraid I’m left with far more questions with this pairing than answers. And in this case, I think it entirely appropriate.